life is a stage

i decided to compile a list of all my performances this yr. (haha yes i am very good at doing up lists for absolutely everything)
hmm. at the end of 2007, i would have done 13 performances. quite appalling..i honestly didnt know it was that many till i counted.

that explains why i've been so busy...... and in light of that, i promise that after arabian nights i will go out with everyone ok? =) everyone who means something to me...i book u all in advance.

MY PERFORMANCE LOG FOR 2007:
so far:
1) chinese new yr concert by ac dance
2) west side story by acsian theatre
3) theasthai (j1 dep exam showcase)
4) RESTLESS IV: TIMELESS by ac dance
5) J2 dep 'a' level exam: -Glory (Anita in america) -Ceci (asoka)
6) Tapestry 2007--street busking along orchard road
7) Bang Bang you're dead by acsian thatre
8) 'i've got rhythm' by ac dance for the 5th asean chief defence force informal meeting

this is what's next on the agenda:
9) 'Inspire 2007' by acsian theate WHICH IS THIS FRI! tix from sistic. it's in aid of the school pocket money fund
10) inventio (j1 dep group exam showcase)---- 6th sep 2007 (thu) @ DBS arts centre, 7.30pm TICKETS FROM ME!! $10. this piece will become the grade for our promo exams
11) open house-- for dance and drama
12) Opening of the CPA. 9th nov @ ritz carlton (for drama and dance)
13) arabian nights

well i think my portfolio is intact; but i really need to focus on my other subjects especially GP cos that's the one which will affect my future the most. i'm thinking of mass comm, like journalism or smth. maybe write for a magazine, which i've always wanted to do. or broadcast journalism's cool too. mayb i'll do theatre part-time. see i actually plan for my future okay. ;)

yeah well. now is busy period for me, and it's hard when i see everyone else having time to study for promos and all, or going out to watch movies etc,cos i don't really have time for that. but i'll live.... this will teach me to manage my time better (?)
i don't regret anything i've done this year tho. and yes, i've alr planned out next year..as in, i more or less have an idea abt what i want to do/don't want to do. yeah

on a final note i must say that leading chapel is really an experience. i didnt noe that no one really participates much, cos my class is in front and all.it's abit disheartening but OHWELL we shall all pray abt that wont we. i guess we'll do it again soon (:
i don't feel very tired now even tho it's 1am, must be the coffee i took in the morning


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now i shall do smth productive, like my great exp essay plan.

musings

i'm supposed to be writing my lit review for pw (my absolute favourite subject in the world) now, but my brain is nearly going to explode from all the nonsense. today i had this epiphany of sorts...two,actually. but will not bother to elaborate here cos it's way too long.


*i realise that i have a tendency to indulge in SeriousThinking whenever i'm by myself on bus/mrt rides. interesting how numerous important decisions were made on mrt trains...for example, my proposed skill for IS next yr. i had a whole train of thought processes (ok lame pun) in my head when i was making this difficult decision, and my mind was wrestling btw musical theatre and dance+text. [i've selected the latter by the way.] being alone to think/reflect is of paramount importance to me. i like to do it everyday, even if i'm busy. it's all fun and good to be surrounded by friends 24/7, but some time alone is cool too. i like being pensive...it's a side of me that not everyone sees, but it's one of the traits that i'm thankful for.

as Rene Descartes famously said: "i think, therefore i am"

life is fun (sometimes)

today i had the luxury of waking up at 11:30am (: i LOVE holidays, and esp now that we're all so busy all the time, days like this have become a rarity/a much-needed and well-deserved break, and they are even more essential now
ytd was AWESOME. i spent time with ppl who mean alot to me. one acs was rather boring and it was friggin hot, but the company was good. i was with the drama ppl and we were so noisy!haha(: and best thing was that dearest CHRISTABEL came to sit with us instead of with her school. i really miss that girl.

anw after that my inventio grp+kester,caleb, mao went to kap. i love my inventio grp; thank u guys for being so understanding and respecting me and my faith. i told them i felt uncomfortablwe with some stuff in our original script, cos we were supposed to be tempters...embodying the 7 deadly sins, and i didnt like the association with satan and the dark side,etc. so. we're doing another script now. have less than a month to adapt the new script and get it from page to stage. inventio is on 6sep by the way =) but my grp really rocks cos they are so understanding and i love em all the more for it. cant wait to see them all again tml. ytd we were all looking at our organisers and we realised that there is really alot of things coming up: inventio, inspire'07, arabian nite practices. not to mention pw,promos,commom tests, etc. we were all like 'SHIT!'...but then we kinda prayed and gave it to God, and i felt better abt everything

i bussed with kester to town to meet CAS and MOMO for our long-awaited outing=) kester and yimmy came along tooooo, and we had a nice lunch at the big o. then we walked around and took manymany pictures,esp in toys 'r' us and in all the toilets that we went into=p i love heather and cas so much <3 when i'm with them, i feel high and happy! all three of us are so similar......it's really cool. we will go out soon again ok?? we wanna have a picnic/high tea/go to cool places/have a nice dinner and dress up/etc. but i foresee that the coming weeks will be full of drama (what's new) and dance. ohwell. at least we had fun ytd (:

er. then i went to kester's house to jam,cos we're doing chapel on the 20th. then me and kester watched rush hour 3 at 10pm at shaw plaza. i tell u,it's hilarious!! chris tucker is like motormouth :D good movie. i want to watch so many movies but there aint enuf time for all,sigh
anyhow. ytd was fun. (: i really think that it's days like these that make life beautiful~~~

bounce back

yesterday ended quite badly, but i'm just thankful that everything's ok now. it taught me that i really have to be more disciplined and controlled, for example: suppressing my outbursts of joy until the appropriate time. it will be difficult cos it's in my personality to be expressive in that manner. but esp now that i'm in dance comm and all... have to be a 'role model'. haha.

i just want to thank all the lovely people who were there for me, encouraging/comforting/praying for me all the way. haha it made everything alot better, and i really feel blessed to have u as friends(:
jas, les, rox, ye, char, jen------- <3!!!
indeed, all this will make me stronger. jen msged me this, which was highly apt: "for i know the plans i have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." from Jeremiah 29:11
God is like the sustainer of everything, it's incredible. i couldn't have made it thru these past few hectic weeks w/o Him, so this is a shoutout kinda thing to the Big Guy Up There: thankyouu so much God =) you're awesome <3 <3
anw, i refuse to let things break me. i am stronger than that!
today was so much better tho..and i must reiterate that i really adore all my friends (:
and tml has very happyprospects as well: no school. the promise of 5 glorious days ahead to catch up with sleep/friends/work/pw (ugh.) and i'm going out with CAS and MOMO (finally!)

yes. don't worry ppl, i'm quite happy and i'm back to normal.

this is what i've been busy with

tapestry 2007-- street busking along orchard road







sheesh i look rather spastic in the last pose huh :/


post-show: dinner with some J5s. this is jasmin, our NEW DRAMA PRESIDENT! also my good friend---i'm so proud of her (:

in between tapestry and bangbang, there was also the ASEAN chief defence force thingy that i did with ac dance, but unfortunately i have no pictures of that.

anyway. BangBang. backstage with ed (: i'd just like to say that i'm really so thankful for edlyn. we're in the same boat; the only diff is that i'm in dance comm and she's in drama comm. but it's nice to know that at least there's someone going thru the same stuff as me














post-show. ben n jerry's, subway, baybeats, chillin (: i had fun


i have fabulous friends(:

this is the stage for ndp'07, which was designed by HSIEN! he's so amazing my goodness

as with all other performances, bbyd was a great experience(: i love drama ppl so much. and i'm so glad i got to do this piece.

anw i finally spent time with the church ppl like shern and bel (: then i went for my massage which i really needed, and i feel alot better now.

yeah i shld go do agamemnon now, have a gd week everyone

sometimes when i blog hop and read abt other ppl's lives, i think abt my own, and i wonder if my life is empty. sometimes i feel trapped in the same cycle of doing the same things, and i feel like i'm compromising on so many other things. i want to do so many things, and spend time with so many ppl, but i'm bounded by my all my various commitments. and i feel like there's a distance that's materialising between myself and some ppl in my life, as if i'm slowly being shut out--you know, there but not really there.

yet, i know that the grass is always greener on the other side. so.instead of wallowing in self-pity i am going to do up a list of tangible action points that will hopefully help me to have a more fulfilling life, because that is important to me. i hate to think that my existence is meaningless and monotonous. i cant help it that i have so many rehearsals, or that i have endless hw to do, but what i can do is to make time for other things too, like my family/my non-drama friends/other people/other things not related to drama or dance or schoolwork. yes promos are important. yes rehearsals are important. but there are other things which have greater importance, and i refuse to be consumed by all the externalities in my life of which i have no control over. i shall start from inside.




anyway just now my sister was listening to planetshakers on her room, and as the music wafted thru to my room, i was prompted to do qt...which i've recently neglected in the midst of all the busyness and late nights. the devotion in ODB for aug1 really spoke to me; i thought that it was highly apt.
"My brethen, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience" -james 1:2-3

i really think that thru this trying period of endless rehearsals, late nights and other issues i've been facing, God has used it to refine my character. even tho i havent been doing qt regularly, i've become more dependent on Him.
i'm not proud of the way i've responded to certain situations, but i'll try evenharder now.

i know that everything will be worth it in the end (:
i hope that, even if i lose everything else that is important to me, at least i'll still have Him up there to turn to

pw:

i hate pw. i have a nice group but i just greatly dislike this subject,and i don't see the relevance of it at all. it is just a mechanism that induces more stress into our already stress-filled lives, and i really do not think it is meeting its objectives/aims so the ministry shld scrap it and prevent future generations from suffering this way. i'm not ranting irrationally by the way.... cos frankly if we evaluate the effectiveness of pw in 'preparing us for the workplace', then it has failed (in that sense). to me, at least. i might be wrong but well those are my views. after all we are all entitled to freedom of speech right? i'm not condemning pw either; i'm just voicing my dissent and frustration. >.<

anyway ytd was i've got rhythm. it was really great!!! :) the event was the 5th ASEAN chief defence force informal meeting-cum-dinner, so there were alot of important ppl. but thank goodness the performance was good, and so was the experience. ah i really LOVE the dancers! <3
next up: Bang Bang You're Dead by ACSian Theatre (j1 batch of '07)... TONIGHT AND TOMORROW NIGHT. have a good weekend everyone

eyebags and sallow skin

3 things that tell me i'm not getting enough sleep:
-EYEBAGS THE SIZE OF AMERICA
-HEADACHES
-PALE SALLOW SKIN

i do not want to complain about the bleakness of my existence on the internet, but i just want to say that i'm tired, so if i havent been as energetic/enthusiastic abt things as i usually am, you know why. i've been staying back till late everyday and when i get home i still have homework and pw (the bane of my life) to do. :(
it's never-ending. after bangbang, practices start for arabian nights,inventio, open house, promos... i feel like i'm on a train that's going way too fast. it's not stopping and i cant breathe. thank God there's a holiday next week! i'm so tempted to skip skool tml but there's dance perf for the ASEAN ministerial congress thing. kinda exciting, yet... i wonder if we are ready. but we always deliver though (as raj says). :)


......i wonder how i got myself into all this. in a sense, i don't think i regret anything; i just wish things were different. it's no joke toggling 2 ccas man. but now that i'm in dance comm, dance will be my priority cca. drama is an extension of dep, plus,so many of my friends are there. i cant let go of either, so i'll just have to manage. i hate it when ppl tell me that it's "my fault" that i'm so tired though. because i'm really trying to manage the best i can, without burning out/without falling back in my studies/without falling sick. the compromise will of course be that i cant spend as much time with my [non-drama] friends, like cas, heather, shern, bel, chris, etc. i WILL eventually go out with all of u tho, ok? cos i still want a life, you know. and most importantly i still want my friends. there's more important things in life than studies!