sometimes when i blog hop and read abt other ppl's lives, i think abt my own, and i wonder if my life is empty. sometimes i feel trapped in the same cycle of doing the same things, and i feel like i'm compromising on so many other things. i want to do so many things, and spend time with so many ppl, but i'm bounded by my all my various commitments. and i feel like there's a distance that's materialising between myself and some ppl in my life, as if i'm slowly being shut out--you know, there but not really there.
yet, i know that the grass is always greener on the other side. so.instead of wallowing in self-pity i am going to do up a list of tangible action points that will hopefully help me to have a more fulfilling life, because that is important to me. i hate to think that my existence is meaningless and monotonous. i cant help it that i have so many rehearsals, or that i have endless hw to do, but what i can do is to make time for other things too, like my family/my non-drama friends/other people/other things not related to drama or dance or schoolwork. yes promos are important. yes rehearsals are important. but there are other things which have greater importance, and i refuse to be consumed by all the externalities in my life of which i have no control over. i shall start from inside.
anyway just now my sister was listening to planetshakers on her room, and as the music wafted thru to my room, i was prompted to do qt...which i've recently neglected in the midst of all the busyness and late nights. the devotion in ODB for aug1 really spoke to me; i thought that it was highly apt.
"My brethen, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience" -james 1:2-3
i really think that thru this trying period of endless rehearsals, late nights and other issues i've been facing, God has used it to refine my character. even tho i havent been doing qt regularly, i've become more dependent on Him.
i'm not proud of the way i've responded to certain situations, but i'll try evenharder now.
i know that everything will be worth it in the end (:
i hope that, even if i lose everything else that is important to me, at least i'll still have Him up there to turn to
yet, i know that the grass is always greener on the other side. so.instead of wallowing in self-pity i am going to do up a list of tangible action points that will hopefully help me to have a more fulfilling life, because that is important to me. i hate to think that my existence is meaningless and monotonous. i cant help it that i have so many rehearsals, or that i have endless hw to do, but what i can do is to make time for other things too, like my family/my non-drama friends/other people/other things not related to drama or dance or schoolwork. yes promos are important. yes rehearsals are important. but there are other things which have greater importance, and i refuse to be consumed by all the externalities in my life of which i have no control over. i shall start from inside.
anyway just now my sister was listening to planetshakers on her room, and as the music wafted thru to my room, i was prompted to do qt...which i've recently neglected in the midst of all the busyness and late nights. the devotion in ODB for aug1 really spoke to me; i thought that it was highly apt.
"My brethen, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience" -james 1:2-3
i really think that thru this trying period of endless rehearsals, late nights and other issues i've been facing, God has used it to refine my character. even tho i havent been doing qt regularly, i've become more dependent on Him.
i'm not proud of the way i've responded to certain situations, but i'll try evenharder now.
i know that everything will be worth it in the end (:
i hope that, even if i lose everything else that is important to me, at least i'll still have Him up there to turn to
posted by bevv @ 12:41 PM
1 Comments:
At 10:43 AM,
Anonymous said…
hahahahaha you koped those tapestry photos from my blog's flickr right? ^^
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