OMG I'M SO HAPPY AND OVERJOYED THAT MY DEP PRELIM EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think it was quite alright; i'm just thankful it's over. this week has been madness. i've never been so tired before i think.. but it was so comforting to know that all the other j2 deppers were all feeling the same way, and we were all encouraging one another and it kinda helped us bond too =) at least, i felt that it did.
friday was the worst, cos i was just so physically and mentally tired the whole day and dragging my carcass around the school like some zombie. but i went home and slept for an hr, felt better after that. i tried a mood simulation exercise by myself in the darkness of my bedroom, and i CRIED ok. which is good, cos it gave me the raw emotion that i needed to channel into the piece. when i tried it on my IS partners, hb cried too and i felt so touched. :)
oh yes, and on sat the newspaper saturday feature was abt the arts scene in singapore... how apt right?? and i had an epiphany of sorts... i was just reading, and then it hit me: why are we doing all this for dep, we do we slog and struggle so much? i guess it goes beyond merely getting a good grade for the exam...we do it becos we love our craft, and becos we have a msg to share with the ppl watching. i remember how much i loved my piece initially, and i was so excited abt it. i wrote my own script, choreographed the dance, did the ppt, installation etc.... but along the way this love slowly diminished at the onslaught of technicalities and ever increasing lists of things-to-do. and i hated it. but ytd i got the fire back :) so thank God man.
now that IS is over i shall seriously push all my other subjects, which have been sadly neglected for the past few weeks, omg.
the teachers werent kidding when they said j2 would be the fastest paced year in one's life. it's like a bullet train that's not stopping and i feel like i'm running behind and waving my arms frantically. but! i endeavour to get on the stupid train before term exams. hell yeah.
i think it was quite alright; i'm just thankful it's over. this week has been madness. i've never been so tired before i think.. but it was so comforting to know that all the other j2 deppers were all feeling the same way, and we were all encouraging one another and it kinda helped us bond too =) at least, i felt that it did.
friday was the worst, cos i was just so physically and mentally tired the whole day and dragging my carcass around the school like some zombie. but i went home and slept for an hr, felt better after that. i tried a mood simulation exercise by myself in the darkness of my bedroom, and i CRIED ok. which is good, cos it gave me the raw emotion that i needed to channel into the piece. when i tried it on my IS partners, hb cried too and i felt so touched. :)
oh yes, and on sat the newspaper saturday feature was abt the arts scene in singapore... how apt right?? and i had an epiphany of sorts... i was just reading, and then it hit me: why are we doing all this for dep, we do we slog and struggle so much? i guess it goes beyond merely getting a good grade for the exam...we do it becos we love our craft, and becos we have a msg to share with the ppl watching. i remember how much i loved my piece initially, and i was so excited abt it. i wrote my own script, choreographed the dance, did the ppt, installation etc.... but along the way this love slowly diminished at the onslaught of technicalities and ever increasing lists of things-to-do. and i hated it. but ytd i got the fire back :) so thank God man.
now that IS is over i shall seriously push all my other subjects, which have been sadly neglected for the past few weeks, omg.
the teachers werent kidding when they said j2 would be the fastest paced year in one's life. it's like a bullet train that's not stopping and i feel like i'm running behind and waving my arms frantically. but! i endeavour to get on the stupid train before term exams. hell yeah.
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