(:

forgot to blog abt the cool talk we had ytd during ce. was by this ex-sc girl, she's a harvard grad;she's been to nepal,africa and has worked in a prison too.and so i was talking abt it with shong,and i realised that both of us wanna be just like that woman. ahahaa (: as in,both of us hope to go to places like nepal and tibet to help the ppl there if ever we get the chance. sounds idealistic but it's smth i'd really like to do b4 i die,so that at least i can go to heaven with the knowledge that i made a difference.
when i tell ppl my plans they look at me and say "you can meh?surviving without your phone, your shopping malls,your AIRCON???" :/ wellll. someone once told me that i come across as the type of person who cant live without her manicures and lattes, but seriously,i think if i had to give up all that for a greater cause, i would.
~c'mon ppl,there are more impt things in this world than GSS!!~
aha. just heard pink's song stupid girls on the radio. and yesyesyes,i dun wanna be a stupid girl.(:
dun wanna just live for the here and now, and waste my life on stupid things.

i want to be somebody who makes a difference

today is e-learning day.

i'm starting to feel a strong dislike for e-learning.
trying to be psyched abt the prospect of working from home but apparently it aint working very well.
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

stuff to think abt.

i cant believe we won talentime! haha its so surreal. but i guess all the practices during recess/after sch/at joan's house were not in vain huh. (: ohhh.mrs wang asked me to sing a solo for family nite! i super super want to do it la, but its like 3 days before prelims start so i dunno. its a dilemma i've been pondering abt since thu. gahh.i think i'm really too fickle,hve to learn to be more decisive. o.o
anw. on fri nite i was supposed to do prep for el oral the next day but i ended up reading thisbook called kite runner by Khaled Hosseini. u noe, the bk that sgp's promoting as part of the read singapore campaign or smth like that. anw, its absolutely fantastic. it made me cry so hard.dunno even noe why.... but it was just so moving and it evoked so much emotion in me. i highly recommend this bk.like one of the critics said,"it makes everything else i read seem bland". hurr(: it's set in afghanistan and its basically abt frenship,war,violence,love etc.super riveting,super evocative..go read it. and now with all the hoo-ha abt lsrael and lLebanon and whathaveyou... i guess by reading kite runner i'm getting a deeper understanding abt the middle east and stufflikethat.before, stuff happening in the middle east was totally foreign to me and i didnt really care much abt it cos it didnt affect me so i always thot what the heck, i have better things to think abt than how many bombs went off in israel, that kinda thing.but now...i'm just so saddened by whats happening. it really got me thinking.
u noe, i grew up listening to spicegirls,michael jackson and all that. children in those worn-torn countries grow up hearing gunshots and bombs almost on a daily basis.they're so innocent and yet they have to go thru all this shit because their ldrs have warped minds. its totally unfair. and this realisation has left me really humbled. imagine if i had been born in say,afghanistan, instead of sgp.my life wld have been so different. sometimes i really think that we take the peace and security in sgp for granted.
like on fri, we celebrated racial harmony day in sch, and when we recited that declaration on religious harmony thing... i thot abt all this too. i think its something that God wants to impress on my mind. ohwell.dun wish to sound sanctimonious or anything...but from today onwards i'm gonna be praying for the ppl in the middle east on top of the stuff i usually pray for everyday. all are welcome to join me.

YOUTHphoria (:

youth sunday rocked. everything abt it made me just feel so blessed and so thankful to be in amc and to be a YOUTH in such a great church. the vibrance, the friendship.... man. (: thank u God!! i think i'll let e pictures speak for themselves. as they say, a picture says a thousand words. ..and just look at all these happy people
















after lunch went with yuliang n bel to tiong to study. they were helping me to sing in a more chinese-y way for talentime cos apparently i sound too angmoh-fied. gahh talentime is today! i am nervous,so very nervous. joan and i have NEVER sung to the minus one versh of the song, the first time we'll be doing tt is during the actual performance. haha. ohwell. at her hse we watched some jaychou mtvs and i must declare: i LOVE jaychou!!! dunno how i survived all these yrs without knowing how fabulous he is. after 'o's i'm gg to borrow joans initialD dvd and watch him act over and over until i'm satisfied. mm. after tt went back to tiong to study. dunno why bel and yuliang noe so much abt acids and bases la. they were trying to explain to me and i was like 'huh?'. sob, i shld noe all this.

lacklustre

man.i'm so glad its gonna be the weekend. sch is driving me nuts. choir,mrs phuah's farewell,chi talentime is seriously eating up my time, doesnt help tt everyone arnd me seems to have alr buckled down and started mugging for prelims.
i havent started yet. on anything.
woke up this morning feeling extremely shibai and worried cos i remembered that the chem mock on the sec3/4 syllabus is only a few days away. two years worth of content and i havent even TOUCHED the stupidnotes.
prayed, felt better after that but ohhhhhh, the feeling is still nagging me:( sigh.
think theres smth wrong with me.i'm becoming so absentminded and forgetful that its not funny. today i lost the letter that sarah wrote to me :( [i'm so so sorry sarahhh] and i lost the letter that mum wrote for mrsyogee.
well. tml is the dance concert,sat is youth sun prac and sunday is YOUTH SUNDAY (:
makes me feel better thinking of those things, but there's this nagging guilt thats eating me up inside, like hey woman u shld be studying not involving urself in all this.
and i keep hearing my mum going "when is this all going to stop???!!"

:( if only i knew.

just some random thoughts.

dramafest rocked! feel so sad that its over, but i guess its good in a way cos i really need the time to start mugging. i'm very very happy. best publicity board. best supporting actor. best supporting actress. 1st runner up. all of us---the whole class---have a reason to be proud man. (:
lit symp: not too bad. lunch was kinda screwed thanks to a certain somebody, but i thot other than tt it was ok. i really like lit, think i'll continue doing it next yr.
next yr......i wanna go to acjc. they have drama elective!!! and its so near my hse/church. of course, if i was smart enuf i'd want to go to hc, but ohwell. must be realistic i guess.

in a few hrs is world cup finals!! i aint a big soccer fan, but must say its quite exciting hehe. (: hope italy wins!! not intending to stay up for the whole match tho. just told some ppl to call me at the start of the last half hr so i can hear e results first hand(: woohoo.

prom

23rd nov @ the regent hotel ~felicite~
its gonna be fun! (:
i'm i/c of entertainment, tgt with with cam and jean. so if anyone knows of any gd bands who wanna play for us lemme noe pls (: heh.
and if u need financial assistance, come tell me too. u noe where to find me! dun have to feel paiseh k.


i really cannot wait for 'o's to be over.
sigh. prom hurry hurry come!!