i feel a sudden compulsion to start studying for terms.
post IS exam; CHIONG all the way man.

life as a depper

valentine's day this year was different...it was the first time that i went to sch with no gifts for anyone, cos i was too busy with my IS. i felt so bad that all my friends were so sweet and generous, and i was empty-handed!! ..but i must say that i felt very loved, thanku so very much to everyone who made it so special =)

aha. this some of us after dep exams...CAN YOU SEE THE ABSOLUTE BLISS ON OUR FACES?? after being deprived so long of fried/ unhealthy food, we stuffed our faces with breko's goodies as fast as we could, after jas's IS (which was the very last one)

june's IS. haha michael said it looks like an ad for united colours of bennington. :) i was a burmese water dancer fighting for democracy, how cool is that? and she had REAL SOIL in the pink studio mind you... on a large canvas sheet.

EDLYNNN. for jas's piece, we were self-exhumated jews who died in the holocaust. btw i think goth makeup is not my style at all

MY OWN PIECE!!!!!!!!!!!! (where was God in the tsunami?) with my beloved dancers, who were an integral part in helping me achieve the grade that i got..of which i feel so incredibly blessed to have gotten because it was totally unexpected :) :)
they hijacked my camera and starting big time cam-whoring.

peter has a fetish for dresses. (he is secretly a girl)

OMG I'M SO HAPPY AND OVERJOYED THAT MY DEP PRELIM EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think it was quite alright; i'm just thankful it's over. this week has been madness. i've never been so tired before i think.. but it was so comforting to know that all the other j2 deppers were all feeling the same way, and we were all encouraging one another and it kinda helped us bond too =) at least, i felt that it did.
friday was the worst, cos i was just so physically and mentally tired the whole day and dragging my carcass around the school like some zombie. but i went home and slept for an hr, felt better after that. i tried a mood simulation exercise by myself in the darkness of my bedroom, and i CRIED ok. which is good, cos it gave me the raw emotion that i needed to channel into the piece. when i tried it on my IS partners, hb cried too and i felt so touched. :)
oh yes, and on sat the newspaper saturday feature was abt the arts scene in singapore... how apt right?? and i had an epiphany of sorts... i was just reading, and then it hit me: why are we doing all this for dep, we do we slog and struggle so much? i guess it goes beyond merely getting a good grade for the exam...we do it becos we love our craft, and becos we have a msg to share with the ppl watching. i remember how much i loved my piece initially, and i was so excited abt it. i wrote my own script, choreographed the dance, did the ppt, installation etc.... but along the way this love slowly diminished at the onslaught of technicalities and ever increasing lists of things-to-do. and i hated it. but ytd i got the fire back :) so thank God man.
now that IS is over i shall seriously push all my other subjects, which have been sadly neglected for the past few weeks, omg.
the teachers werent kidding when they said j2 would be the fastest paced year in one's life. it's like a bullet train that's not stopping and i feel like i'm running behind and waving my arms frantically. but! i endeavour to get on the stupid train before term exams. hell yeah.

taking stock of life as it is

yesterday, i posted a slew of pictures onto my blog...after a mighty long hiatus. i love how pictures say what words cannot. through images, we can relive all the good times with friends/ family, and all thos fond memories. ah :) anyway, i felt compelled to blog a proper entry. it's one of those spur of the moment compulsions to ramble, or rather, to think about things and then typing them down concurrently.

i should first take stock of my life. am currently in a prolonged state of busyness because my dep prelims are on the 16th of Feb, which is essentially in a week's time. might i add, God has been an AMAZING source of strength during this season of my life, which has been seriously hectic man. but i take comfort in the fact that it will be over..soon. in due time laa.

anyhow, just now i decided to inspire myself by doing up a list of things that i will endeavour to do this year. it will supersede my new year resolutions because it is the updated version :) oh wait, this can be my [CHINESE]new year resolutions,hahaha. so anyway, i reckon i covered every sphere of my life, and rightly so, because i've decided that i want my life to be balanced and holistic. i'm proud of this new list because it sums up all that i aspire to be, and it has realigned my priorities with God's. you know what, if people actually knew half the things i think about, they wouldnt call me a bimbo. HA. because i really do think about hell lotta things. like the meaning of life, the cultivation of specific values and traits, and yes i do reflect alot and i even chart my own growth and maturity because i journal so much. i think, the best way that i can communicate my inner landscape is through the written word, because my personality dictates that my outward behaviour makes me come across to other people as one of those easily excited, easily-mistaken-to-be-an-airhead type of girl...those that outwardly seem incapable of profound thought. OR AM I WRONG? =) but anyhow, notice my use of the word 'outwardly'. externally, superficially... same difference. haha =) actually a lot of people are likethat; as in, they are so much more than they appear to be. i've discovered that thru my interaction with different people everyday!

i hereby (self)proclaim that i can effectively contradict the old adage, empty vessels make the most noise. because even though i talk alot, i'd like to believe that i am not an empty headed person. =)

cheers XOXO

a pictorial montage

hum drum

i'm proud to say that i survived one whole week of J2 life-- academic aspects and all other commitments. INCLUDING yesterday=) ac dance performed for some youth olympics seminar thingy, and we had to be in school by 6am with hair bunned and makeup done. i woke up at 4.30am! haha but it was worth it laa.
i must proclaim my severe orientation withdrawal symptoms to the world.:( i cant believe it was one week ago, seems like a million yrs have passed since campfire ended. i miss my og kids, and rolling around in mud, and being retarded with the other kyojin girls (our bimbo cheer wins hands down man), and cheering my lungs out (surprisingly, i didnt lose my voice even tho i cheered like mad everyday. miss wong said it's due to the voice training i get in DEP, hahahaha). and seeing the other ogls everyday. i'm trying to get back on track in terms of academic work, but it pales in comparison to ogling in terms of enjoyment. duh. anyway here are some random pictures of orientation that i got off other ppl's blogs:)

this is the side profile and back profile of 2 of my og kids VINCE and JOHNPAUL. =)

at this present juncture i am in the midst of writing my essay for commonwealth essay comp. yes, i think i'm crazy too... there's this whole unfinished pile of hw waiting to be completed and here i am writing a 1500 word essay which is fully optional. haha. just wanted to give it a try, but i dun think it'll amount to much. just for kicks. =)

my life is more or less normal, there is nth very interesting happening now. oh, DEP prelims are in abt a month's time omggg. :( i hope that i can pull off a kick-ass, tear-jerking perfomance tgt with my helpers (CHERYL YING HANNBIN and PETER!). fingers crossed

phew! :)

lately i've been so busy that i can hardly keep track of the days anymore. christmas seems like so long ago! but i guess it's a good kind of busy (?)...there's OGL stuff, and spending time with ppl, and dance comm stuff, and of course christmas! the only damper in the whole equation is (what else) the perpetual cloud hanging over my head which screams 'homework'. which, might i add, i am no where near done. but whatever, i'll manage best as i can, given the circumstances. i kinda promised miss wong that i wld stay on top of things if i signed up for ogling. hrmmmmmmm.
but i must say, signing up to be an OGL is probably one of the BEST things i've done in ac. =) seriously. we broke camp today--or rather, tonight-- and i feel so strangely fulfilled and plain happy. like there's this supreme cause that i'm part of, and this huge big family that i now belong to. i love all the new ppl i got to know, everone's so nice(: and so is kyojin man. tomorrow i'm gonna call my og kids, it's kinda exciting. and jas's party is tml too!

i think it will only be the day b4 sch reopens that i can actually do my hw again. >.<

*oh yes, i must add that i havent been logging into facebook for AGES becos of the hive of activity that has consumed my being. and yes i know i've been superpoked one million times but sorry dearest friends, facebook is currently pushed to last priority at the mo, cos there are alot of other things demanding my attn and i cannot afford to spend hrs on end superpoking ppl and dishing out nicknames (altho that would be nice)
XOXOXO

euphoric

i'm extremely happy and proud of myself cos my room is finally neat and uncluttered! for the past year or so, i'd been living in a PIG STY of a room, and i aint exaggerating one bit. it was dusty and cluttered with useless inordinate things. but NOW.. it is very liveable and airy and spacious =)
i threw out so much paper, esp sec school notes (don't ask me why i still kept them.. i dunno either) it felt good to discard all that, like something in me was slowly let free. (:
i've been a messy person for as long as i can remember (in terms of my room), but now i shall really ATTEPMT to keep it uncluttered.

ah.it's 1am and i have not showered (becos i only just finished the packing. from after-dinner to now... quite a long time huh) hahaa but it feels great anyway
XOXO

this is a heavily punctuated random post

i think, i am a rather arty farty person.
in fact. i love going to museums and i can spend 3278342 hrs there. i've also discovered a new favourite hangout, the NATIONAL LIBRARY. i love it, it's a great place to research/chill/see exhibits/spend a lazy afternoon. :) if not for my IS, i doubt i would have gone there at all, but it's really some treasure trove of knowledge la. i went by myself last friday for IS research about the 2004 tsunami (cos that's what my DEP Indiv Skill--or IS--is gonna be abt anyway. some emo, questioning thing with dance and text). yeah so i lugged my dad's ancient heavy laptop and spent my afternoon there. it was RESTFUL (: i found some pics abt the tsunami and mygosh they were so sad i nearly cried there and then. but yeaah. go there if u have the chance, i highly encourage that.
that night i went to the arts house with my mum to watch y grec, which was interesting but a tad highbrow. i liked the installtion tho, it was cool. pure white. the architecture was modelled after actual greek buildings cos the director took a trip there last yr as part of research for the piece! haha i wish i cld have gone for more singapore writer's fest stuff. i bookmarked alot of things but had no time to go. like the arthur yap exhibition.

mm. went for drama party @ glory's last nite. so fun! the best was THRASHING kester @ the xbox guitar hero thing..felt damn good. :D haha oh and during gift exchange we all thot that the present contributed by tushar was some disgusting sex toy or something, cos he and henryk were making such a big deal of it! but it turned out to be a KID'S GOLF SET. with plenty of BALLS,geddit? aiyo. i'll miss my dep seniors like mad next yr la. :(

WE will be the seniors. omg

adam vs eve youthphoria event || pcg dinner || kim's 18th @ hyatt

suday night: kim's birthday party @ grand hyatt, in a swanky grand duplex suite. i had fun..taking pics, eating, dancin.reallylove seeing everyone looking posh and prettied-up.(: loads of drama ppl were there, mostly the AN dancers. plus su, kerri, sara, mich, kim's bf and some ex-barker boys. of course, i put on loads of glitter (i think, it's become my signature of sorts) :D and there was dancing, but it was abit weird cos all the guys didnt really dance, so -.-"


classic moment




kim! the gorgeous gorgeous bday girl, cutting her cake..which was damn cool. a chocolate sponge CHANEL BAG:p the other delicacies were very pretty and good to eat, like the marshmallows which came in all sorts of pastel colours, with the chocolate fondue that michelle melted. mmm (:

me and chu. and below is me and jas! she looks like a myscene chelsea doll DON'T YOU AGREE

pcg dinner on sat nite @ manhattan fish market

adam vs eve @ sentosa: we were obviously trying to jump, but my sister's cam aint very good

girls on the way to sentosa for our girls' outing! i think my yellow nails were quite AA

on the sky lift. poor ruth was so scared :(




i really enjoyed the adam vs eve outing!!kudos to those ppl who organised it. after we rode the luge, the girls met up with the guys at the beach, and we sang songs and prayed for one another. it was nice, just sitting there and enjoying nature as God intended. (: the contrast was v cool, cos we were singing our christian sings against the secular beats if cafe del mar. as i sang, the secular songs kinda faded away in the recesses of my mind... it was really cool.

anyway, i went out with my grandma ytd. had a good time catching up with her and shopping. (:then i went to extract my wisdom tooth! was kinda scared at first, esp for the post surgery period. but it really was not bad, AT ALL. sure, there was blood, but painless nonetheless. anaesthesia is great, totally numbed everything. and the dentist said my mouth wld swell today, but IT HASNT. :) praise God. tomorrow there's drama cos apparently we're performing for some red cross charity event on sat.

XOXO