feeling itchy to type hence the relatively long entry

i feel so VICTORIOUS that i made it thru this insanely crazy week(:
let's see.
mon i was late for sch and had dc again. it really wasnt my fault (again) but nth i cld do abt it. >.<
tue i slept at 2am because i went out for dinner with chanel and joyce, then i sewed my restless jeans late into the night with only the radio for company............................
wed i slept at 3:30am doing my lastminute gp assignment,with only the radio and a can of coffee for company. i hate gp btw!
thu i was so sleepy in sch...and then there was dance
i was shagged that when i reached home on thu at 9plus,i ate dinner then i plonked onto the bed..supposedly for half an hr,but ended up sleepin till morning. slept thru the nite without bathing/brushing teeth/doing hw.. UNINTENTIONALLY,of course.anw i woke up in my dirty dance tee shirt,felt quite disgusting. of course i bathed b4 sch,friends.i'm not that gross.
but anw i still made it thru the day,and fri too..albeit with a slight headache, probably due to all the sleep deprivation. i slept till 10:30 on sat morning,woke up feeling loads better(:

theasthai...gah. i thot i didnt do very well. our duologue was classified under 'the funnies' (i.e. comedy) but hello?i didnt think it was funny at all la.and ppl didnt really laugh. it was demoralizing,depressing,disappointing. ok,i exaggerate,but didnt help that i was feeling emo that day.everyone else's piece was so good tho,really so proud of all my depper friends(: .after theasthai some ppl went out for supper i think,but i wasn't in a celebratory/big-crowd kinda mood so went to macs @ tiong with ed,then went home to shower and plonk onto bed.
this week is restless week (: even tho we'll be missing the last crucial week of sch, the prospect of spendin one week with the dancers <3 and just dancing our hearts out,more than makes up for it.


on another note,someone told me i changed alot after i came to jc. i guess it's inevitable to change,because change is constant.but i didnt like what she told me.or mayb it was the way in which she told me. i don't even know myself if what she said is true.well, i guess some parts are,but definitely not others. i pride myself on the fact that i'm a very reflective/introspective person (more so than i appear to be). but u know what,i don't have anything to prove to anyone so it shouldn't really matter....i dunno why i was so bothered :( i know i've changed in some ways,but i'm still the same person in many other aspects
no one can really understand fully what i experience;similarly,i can't fully understand what other ppl experience. and i wish ppl wouldnt judge me based on first impressions,becos i've learnt that first impressions are often highly inaccurate (in most cases). i know i am not really a ditz. i know i have substance

another thing i dislike: when ppl assume that i'm neglecting my priorities just becos i appear to be preoccupied with other things in my life. i know how much i can take (even tho it may seem otherwise),and if i want to do smth,i'll do it. sure i may be fickle and everything,but in the end i do it. when ppl pity me for being 'perpetually tired'/perpetually busy,it makes me push on all the more,just to prove that i can

there seem to be alot of things that other ppl don't know/don't understand abt me.and i'm not even that complex a person :/




i don't know why, but i'm finding it harder and harder to really maintain friendships. joyce said that extroverts tend to have alot of friends,but few deep friendships.it's the whole qnty over quality, breadth over depth concept. which kindof sucks,becos what's the pt of having alot of friends but only a few really close ones?sometimes i wish i was more introverted,i really do =(